Kellsi's Love Dare - Day 1

"Wherefore my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:"
- James 1:19
I consider myself to be a very patient person in most circumstances, but for some reason, when it comes to my husband, my patience is cut short. I don't really know why, and I know there is no excuse for it...I just need to change.

I will admit that this morning, this first challenge seemed to be just that...a challenge. Although I wasn't being impatient or unkind to Ryan, I wasn't really acting like a loving wife either.

I've noticed that I tend to use a tone of voice with him that can be harsh and make me seem irritated or annoyed even if nothing is wrong!...Wtf is that all about?! Lol...He's come to me on several occasions saying that he feels like I'm annoyed by him, and until now, I haven't understood why that is...Again, I know there is NO excuse for this behavior, however, thinking about my family relationships growing up, this is how most of us (there were 7 of us total) spoke to each other on a regular basis...I guess this is just something I need to nip in the bud RIGHT now, because not only do I hate that Ryan has to listen to me speak to him in that manner, but, I don't want Scarlet or any of our other future children to get that negative trait from me. I don't want our kids to speak like that to us, each other, or their future spouses!

Today, Ryan worked from 9:30 to 5:30 so I really didn't have to watch myself much when it came to today's love dare. However, I did make a few changes to my attitude when he got home from work...Instead of being upset that he was going to go play soccer on a moments notice (btw, he invited Scarlet and I to come watch, which is something he never really thinks about doing!), I willingly, and happily, told him we'd go watch him play. Not only that, but, I actually goofed off in the car with him, dancing like an idiot to the music we were listening to (something I USED to do all the time, being care free and acting like a dork, but for some reason haven't allowed myself to really do anymore...I miss being like that!!)....Scarlet and I stayed and watched for about an hour, but, we needed to get some grocery shopping done and the poor girl was SO tired. Ryan got a ride from a teammate and I ended up making him a pretty good chicken alfredo dinner (which he was VERY appreciative of!)...I've also noticed that our two huskies irritate me a LOT...They do little things that just know how to push my buttons and send me off my rocker lol, and if I get mad at them, then sometimes my feelings from whatever happened carry over into my following conversations (like if I'm peeved at them and irritable and he asks me a question I tend to snap at him, etc)...well, one of these things happened tonight but instead of snapping at my hubby like it would've been so easy to do. I stopped. Took a breath. Relaxed. And THEN answered his question....Wow, it really works! Now he wants to go cuddle lol (again, not something we really do much of anymore!)...

So, I have completed day 1 of the love dare challenge and I think it went well. I know it's put ME in a much better mood all day, and I think Ryan's appreciated it as well and that makes me feel good! I hope the rest of you will have as much fortune with it that I had today!